Why am I blogging???

I could list for you all the things I should be doing. Things like studying for a Calculus quiz that's in 10 hours, reading articles for a research paper that needs to grow 3 pages by next week, or even just taking a shower and getting into bed before 11 for the first time all week. Why am I not doing those things? I really don't know.

Here are some random thoughts that are tumbling around in my brain. Please don't expect this to make any sense, because most likely it won't.

I really don't want to get ready for bed, because that means I have to take my makeup off. I so seldom get "pretty" when I'm at school, but tonight we had an orchestra concert and I just wanted to look a little nicer than usual. And now I really want to stay dolled up for just a little longer, just a little longer...I don't really know why.

I had 2 tests yesterday. The one I felt pretty good about I already know the grade, and it's a B. Ick. The other one I was pretty sure I bombed walking out, and realllly don't want to see the grade now.

I am so so very unsure of what path my life is going to take. Sometimes I think not having a real major is a curse, because it has allowed me to sort of slip and slide along under the radar, and I could keep doing that. I just don't want to. I want to have a defined goal, an ambition, a plan! I'm a planning kind of girl! Everyone has an opinion, and I know it's going to be discussed this weekend, and I just-don't know what to do.

Tonight was my first ever orchestra concert that not one person in the audience was there "for" me. I have always had at least one parent, friend, pastor, something there to hear me. I didn't play well, either, my mind was all over the place. It was weird. Also, I don't think orchestra is going to fit into my schedule next semester, which is really sad. But then again, who knows what my schedule for next semester will look like? See above.

I have serious roommate issues. I just want us to coexist, but she thinks that we should still be "BFFs" like we were in high school. If I had it to do over again, I would never have roomed with someone I already knew. At least not someone I knew so well. A roommate should be someone you like, but not someone you really feel compelled to spend lots of time with and spill your every living secret to. Doesn't work, people, and now we're stuck together 'til May, doing this awkward dance around each other's feelings, and I just wish I could get out of it.

My brother is now a licensed driver-that makes me feel so OLD! All my friends are turning 20. In a lot of ways, I feel ready to leave the "teen years" behind, but 20 just seems really up there in age. I know it's not. But it seems that way. 17 always seemed old, too. I guess it's just a matter of perspective.

I have definitely already started listening to Christmas music. It's my favorite. I can't wait for the weather to get cold and stay that way. It's been teasing us the last few nights, but it always warms up in the daytime. I'm so ready to stop sweating every time I walk outside!

Today I ate: pancakes, a banana, hot tea, a cupcake, crackers with cheese, a Coke Zero, a Chick-Fil-A sandwich, waffle fries, a Capri Sun, another cupcake, a piece of wheat bread, and a cheese stick. It was a weird culinary day, and I think my stomach is starting to realize that and let me know how it feels. Urgh.

Whoo, well that was definitely random. I guess I just needed to get some stuff out "there". I think I will go take a shower, and probably wing it on the Calc quiz.

"Glory be to God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit; as it was in the beginning, is now and will be forever. Alleluia. Amen."